fall

If you fall for me, you can't fall out.
I'll drive you more than crazy but at the end of the day you'll feel blessed.
If you fall for me be sure that you fall for the depth of my emotions and the substance of my mind. be sure that you didn't fall in lust with beautiful words made by a broken being. be sure that you didn't walk in front of love and fall inside the illusions of my sentences.
If you fall for me, It's a one-way ticket straight to my heart.
He fell for me and now I'm ready to invest in him

dear

I like being independent not so much of an investment. I’ve always loved to have a soul mate, I knew God would give him to me someday & I knew it’ll be worth the wait. It was all about me till I met you. All these feelings I just cant hide cant bear the pain when we are apart. We are opposites we tend to attract but we also retract, everything about us is different. Everything seems almost incompatible,yet I still yearn to see you. I still can't wait to say I love you to your face You’re my joy and my everything the heart to keep me alive….I love you
Believe me when I say this but its true

my mind

I think a lot, perhaps too much.
I tend to live inside my mind.
I walk between my thoughts, alone..
Those demons became my only friends.
After midnight they're my enemies.
They scream, cry and hurt my mind.
Tortured memories fly and hurt me like a knife on a fresh skin.
They think I'm too quiet but inside..
Inside of me there's a storm of scars.
I can't connect with my own vibe.
I think a lot, perhaps too much.
I tend to live inside my mind but..
If you were there to listen to me, I wouldn't think alone.

solitude

Am I the reason of my solitude?
Am I the reason of this loner life?
I push people away when they can define my thoughts and emotions.
It's not my fault, I don't like attention.
I would like to remain a mystery.
I would like people to wonder about me..
I want them to dance between my sentences and vibe with every word.
Yes, I want to remain more than a mystery.
I want to be a myth, something people talk about and dream about but can't really describe.
I'm the reason of my solitude..

Grey,rainy,cold

Grey, rainy, cold...
This day wants to be forgotten; wants to hide into the numbers of days of a last year. This day doesn't have a name.
Grey, rainy, cold...
How many days have shared the same epithets? Do they find each other in the past, stay together like a group of widows?
Grey, rainy, cold...
A day that has broken its first promise of light..
A day in shame.

thoughts

In the morning, it's still difficult to forget, to forgive, to regret; but then the day takes over and teaches us better.
In the morning, you still remember the secrets of the night before but then you wear your masks and you "live"
In the morning, you're still in pain because of your constant loneliness but then you meet strangers and feel temporary happiness.

tired

I'm tired of breathing the same air as you.
This energy contaminates my vibe.
I'm tired of speaking to a ghost.
Your presence is invisible.
I'm tired of wearing masks to hide myself.
I'm ashamed of my unseen scars.
I'm tired of being alone in my darkness.
I can't converse with humans.
I'm tired of walking for nothing.
My bones became too weak.
I lost you because of my mistakes.
I lost me because I tried to change.
You lost me because I'm not the same.
We lost us because we were too tortured

I've learned

No matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.
I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.
I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.”
I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back.
I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one.
I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back
I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.
I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel

my empty mind

last night i was more than happy but i felt empty. everything inside me became a whole. no scars or pain and i felt empty..yeah, i'm fucked in the head,no one understands; i'm lost and don't want to be found. Don't listen to me, just hear my advices and create your own ideas. i'm fucking lost, just like you but don't label me, I'm not someone that can be judged by your shallow minds. To be honest I feel the most delusional minds are the ones that creates the most amazing things in this world so I ain't worried about nothing

my unsaid words

Believe it or not, there are certain times of the month that love actually hurts. If my heart could talk it would tell you I'm breaking. if my heart could talk you would know, but my mouth speaks of words I feel. My heart wants to speak but my mouth would not leap at the opportunity to tell you what's going on. My love hasn't changed, you say yours hasn't either how do I know if its true. My heart cries out for you to listen but you can't cause your always missing. Out of reach and out of touch. This wasn't planned, a distant relationship, a broken heart wondering if it is being loved or toyed with.
I'm not sayin you don't 
I'm not sayin you wouldn't 
I'm not sayin its true 
I'm saying I'm hurting, crying, my head aches, I'm saying why my heart breaks. Can you make this work, can I stop cryin.. Can you not look at me as a child but as person who wants love, who has found love and wants this to last. But all I ask is what can you do? What can you do to take away those sleepless nights wondering if love is suppose to hurt. I believe what we have is precious, divine, special, what we have I had hope to last a lifetime.
My mouth has spoken words,my heart has set dreams. My mind has a plan that ends with you and me.
  - all I need is some assurance from you to let me know what I should do

relationships

I think that one of the biggest reason why relationships do not work out in the long run is because at one point, one side (or both) stops trying. Before one claims another person as their significant other, they would do anything to make that person happy. They would chase, they would flirt, they would be charming. They would send daily morning and goodnight texts every time you wake up or go to sleep. They would write corny messages and pick up lines just to make sure that there is a smile upon your face. But once they claim you as theirs, all of those things eventually stop. The 5 page texts slowly turn into 1. The constant calls turn into not calling at all. And the lovely endearment turn into daily arguments. In order for a relationship to work, don’t ever stop chasing. Just because the person you want is now considered "yours”, it does not mean they deserve anything less than the time when you’re trying to win them over.

havas

Being me is like going through life with 8 eyes, you see everything, every side to every story, every side to every person.but then your optimistic, so when you see bad, you excuse it, you see worse, and you deny it, until the world makes you a cynic.And even then you still have this romanticized idea of love, peace and happiness with all, so you become this hypocritical cynical romantic.Now I'm not the girl I used to be lately, see you met me at an interesting time..welcome to my life!!!!!!! 

afraid of your love

You say that you love rain,
but you open your umbrella when it rains.
you say that you love the sun,
but you find shade when the sun shines.
you say that you love the wind,
but you close your windows when wind blows.
this is why i am afraid;
you say that you love me too.